Boy Oh Boy!
So I’m a mom...
Wow to even think I’d even be saying those words it’s so crazy to me, I mean I knew I’d be a mother one day but if you told me at the age of 26 that I would be a mother I probably wouldn’t have believed you. It’s rather funny how I found out I was pregnant, well not so much at the time but looking back on it it was funny. It all started one night when I got home from work and I started losing feeling in my left knee well that sensation proceeded all the way down my side, it freaked me out, to say the least. It felt like I was having a stroke so to air on the side of caution we went to the hospital. Well, they ran some test and what not, long story short I was pregnant!! At first, I didn’t believe the doctor I mean we had definitely been trying to have a baby but it was honestly the furthest thing from my mind at that point I thought I was dying just an hour earlier (not really though haha) so we were pregnant! Now it was time to tell everyone, everybody was so excited for us! The first trimester was easygoing, I might have thrown up once but I was more sleepy than anything and I’m talking really sleepy like sneaking naps at work (which I don’t recommend) the second trimester was just as breezy as the first. The day we found out what we were having was such a sweet day! We were having a baby boy then came the fun task of figuring out a name we tossed around a few ideas Eddie finally came up with
the name Jax Moon from a character in a book called the Name Of The Wind. Then came the third trimester I’m not sure if I was being punished for having such an easy first and second trimester, but this one really kicked my butt! I was having terrible indignation like keep you up all night indignation:( I would never wish that on my worst enemy. I also never went a day without taking a nap let me tell you what those were the best naps ever! If only there were some magical ways you could store up those naps for the sleepless nights to come. The last few weeks before your due date are the longest days of your life it seems I’d like to say I was nervous but I’m not sure if the nerves came from the thought of giving birth or taking care of a tiny little human. But it was hard to get nervous about something your completely not familiar with, a couple of weeks before he was due I had a normal doctor appointment. I started having high blood pressure the doctor was worried it was pre-eclampsia so he sent me to the hospital for testing. They hooked me up to the blood pressure cuff and started monitoring Jax as well, they also sent me home with the task of collecting my pee for 24 hours. All the test for those came back clear which was a blessing. The following week was my last doctor appointment before the sweet baby boy came, to say I was miserable was an understatement haha. So the morning of October 8 I went to the doctor for my checkup which at this point was weekly now. I was having high blood pressure again so the doctor thought it was best to go ahead and send me to the hospital. I was 40 weeks and one day so at this point, it was time for him to come out. they got me in a room and started all the lovely Meds to induce labor. I was having contractions but to be honest they weren't too terrible like yes my back was killing me but I wasn't having to breath thru anything too crazy. The doctor did inform me that if I hadn't progressed from what I was when I got there that I was more than likely gonna have to have a C section. Which honestly didn't bother me at all I was in a weird state of mind that whole day it was like I was there but I was also not there. Because to be truthful I thought I was gonna be a hot mess as soon as I stepped into the hospital, But I was in a state of calm the whole day. I dilated to a 6 before I got my epidural the whole process for that wasn't the best. as soon as they gave it to me and I got settled back in the bed I started to lose my hearing, which was a very scary moment. All the nurse rushed back in and assisted me and got my blood pressure back down, I continued in labor till about 2:30 am the next morning. And I hadn't progressed from a 6, and my blood pressure continued to stay up really high so the doctor thought it was just best if I went thru with my C section. They got us all ready for that and rolled me into the room for surgery for anyone who hasn't experienced a c section its a very strange feeling, because yes you are awake but you feel nothing. It like nothing I've ever felt before, Then my sweet Baby boy came into the world at 3:05am. The days that followed in the hospital were a blur, between people visiting and never really sleeping because i couldn't keep my eyes off my sweet baby <3 We finally were able to go home, its a very strange feeling leaving the hospital because you had all the help of the nurse and staff then your expected to go home and take care of this human who can't do for them self at all, all the while "trying" to recover for the major surgery you just had a couple of days ago. It didn't take me long to recover from the physical part of birth I was up and walking around great a couple of days afterward, people were actually so surprised. The mental part of the recovery was a completely another story, I'm sure other people who have gone thru it know. But I'll never be able to explain the state of mind I was in to not want your baby and thinking they would be better off without you is the most helpless feeling I've ever gone thru. It took me a couple of weeks and talking thru it with other people who have been thru the same thing to know I wasn't alone and that other people have felt the same thing, it was such a blessing to know I wasn't alone in that feeling and that it was just my body going thru such a crazy change and it wasn't what I truly was feeling. And I hope if you're a first-time mom and you're going thru the same thing. Just know it will get better trust me, and these thoughts that your feeling are just temporary and it's okay to ask for help. My sweet baby has grown up so much since then hes now two months old and the sweetest happy baby ever, we all love him to the moon and back and don't know what we would do without him <3 Thank you so much for reading about my birth story, I'd love to hear what kind of birth experience you went thru. Feel free to leave it in the comments below. :)
TTYL Haley Bird
Wow to even think I’d even be saying those words it’s so crazy to me, I mean I knew I’d be a mother one day but if you told me at the age of 26 that I would be a mother I probably wouldn’t have believed you. It’s rather funny how I found out I was pregnant, well not so much at the time but looking back on it it was funny. It all started one night when I got home from work and I started losing feeling in my left knee well that sensation proceeded all the way down my side, it freaked me out, to say the least. It felt like I was having a stroke so to air on the side of caution we went to the hospital. Well, they ran some test and what not, long story short I was pregnant!! At first, I didn’t believe the doctor I mean we had definitely been trying to have a baby but it was honestly the furthest thing from my mind at that point I thought I was dying just an hour earlier (not really though haha) so we were pregnant! Now it was time to tell everyone, everybody was so excited for us! The first trimester was easygoing, I might have thrown up once but I was more sleepy than anything and I’m talking really sleepy like sneaking naps at work (which I don’t recommend) the second trimester was just as breezy as the first. The day we found out what we were having was such a sweet day! We were having a baby boy then came the fun task of figuring out a name we tossed around a few ideas Eddie finally came up with
the name Jax Moon from a character in a book called the Name Of The Wind. Then came the third trimester I’m not sure if I was being punished for having such an easy first and second trimester, but this one really kicked my butt! I was having terrible indignation like keep you up all night indignation:( I would never wish that on my worst enemy. I also never went a day without taking a nap let me tell you what those were the best naps ever! If only there were some magical ways you could store up those naps for the sleepless nights to come. The last few weeks before your due date are the longest days of your life it seems I’d like to say I was nervous but I’m not sure if the nerves came from the thought of giving birth or taking care of a tiny little human. But it was hard to get nervous about something your completely not familiar with, a couple of weeks before he was due I had a normal doctor appointment. I started having high blood pressure the doctor was worried it was pre-eclampsia so he sent me to the hospital for testing. They hooked me up to the blood pressure cuff and started monitoring Jax as well, they also sent me home with the task of collecting my pee for 24 hours. All the test for those came back clear which was a blessing. The following week was my last doctor appointment before the sweet baby boy came, to say I was miserable was an understatement haha. So the morning of October 8 I went to the doctor for my checkup which at this point was weekly now. I was having high blood pressure again so the doctor thought it was best to go ahead and send me to the hospital. I was 40 weeks and one day so at this point, it was time for him to come out. they got me in a room and started all the lovely Meds to induce labor. I was having contractions but to be honest they weren't too terrible like yes my back was killing me but I wasn't having to breath thru anything too crazy. The doctor did inform me that if I hadn't progressed from what I was when I got there that I was more than likely gonna have to have a C section. Which honestly didn't bother me at all I was in a weird state of mind that whole day it was like I was there but I was also not there. Because to be truthful I thought I was gonna be a hot mess as soon as I stepped into the hospital, But I was in a state of calm the whole day. I dilated to a 6 before I got my epidural the whole process for that wasn't the best. as soon as they gave it to me and I got settled back in the bed I started to lose my hearing, which was a very scary moment. All the nurse rushed back in and assisted me and got my blood pressure back down, I continued in labor till about 2:30 am the next morning. And I hadn't progressed from a 6, and my blood pressure continued to stay up really high so the doctor thought it was just best if I went thru with my C section. They got us all ready for that and rolled me into the room for surgery for anyone who hasn't experienced a c section its a very strange feeling, because yes you are awake but you feel nothing. It like nothing I've ever felt before, Then my sweet Baby boy came into the world at 3:05am. The days that followed in the hospital were a blur, between people visiting and never really sleeping because i couldn't keep my eyes off my sweet baby <3 We finally were able to go home, its a very strange feeling leaving the hospital because you had all the help of the nurse and staff then your expected to go home and take care of this human who can't do for them self at all, all the while "trying" to recover for the major surgery you just had a couple of days ago. It didn't take me long to recover from the physical part of birth I was up and walking around great a couple of days afterward, people were actually so surprised. The mental part of the recovery was a completely another story, I'm sure other people who have gone thru it know. But I'll never be able to explain the state of mind I was in to not want your baby and thinking they would be better off without you is the most helpless feeling I've ever gone thru. It took me a couple of weeks and talking thru it with other people who have been thru the same thing to know I wasn't alone and that other people have felt the same thing, it was such a blessing to know I wasn't alone in that feeling and that it was just my body going thru such a crazy change and it wasn't what I truly was feeling. And I hope if you're a first-time mom and you're going thru the same thing. Just know it will get better trust me, and these thoughts that your feeling are just temporary and it's okay to ask for help. My sweet baby has grown up so much since then hes now two months old and the sweetest happy baby ever, we all love him to the moon and back and don't know what we would do without him <3 Thank you so much for reading about my birth story, I'd love to hear what kind of birth experience you went thru. Feel free to leave it in the comments below. :)TTYL Haley Bird
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